Cai at 1 week

Cai at 1 week

 

ONCE UPON A TIME .…

there was a girl, who dreamed of one day having a family…...but had no clue how to get what she wanted, the path to Motherhood was not a clear one… Fear and self doubt stood in her way, unrealistic expectations of all the things she was supposed to have accomplished first, all the things that would have to change in her life in order for her to become a ‘good’ mother….And then one day it happened….together with her partner she conceived a child…...just like that she had become a Mother…...and she was scared out of her mind!


So began my journey into parenthood…..and the biggest shock was just just how much I didn’t know about how to do this! The second biggest shock was realising that...a lot of women feel this way, about a process that is profoundly natural to womanhood. So I began the process of self education and exploration into a subject that society likes to keep quiet, I had never heard my Mother or Grandmother talk about birth, I had no friends that had given birth - and those that had never talked about it. I had to ask a lot of questions of others and of myself, read a lot of books and dive down a lot of emotional rabbit holes to get anywhere near a feeling of readiness for birth. This process was the hardest, most fulfilling and profound of my life so far. This process changes you. This process is important for you and your baby. This is the process of growing into the Mother you always knew you could be …. deep down.  


When my son was born on the new moon in April I couldn’t have recognised the person that conceived him 9 months previously, so much had changed, and not just the physical.  This journey of massive change is so profound and so utterly life altering that I believe no woman should have to navigate it alone. Despite having a well paid and well developed career that I could readily have returned to within a few months of giving birth I decided that  providing that support for others, to help them navigate their own unique path to Motherhood was what I wanted to do….and thus April Moon was born.